
Don't be fooled by the smiles. Corinne's first day of school was...a bit traumatic at the drop-off & goodbye. She was "so excited" she said this morning, all the way up until pulling in the parking lot of school. It seemed to get worse from there. I have heard and talked to and read so many of my friends' blogs about how it was the BEST day of their kids' year, going to school for the first time. Full of pictures and smiles, and excitement and energy and anticipation. Well, that was not our experience on the first day. Then again, I was expecting this. I second guessed my decision to send her to school for about 1.5 of the 2.5 hours she was there. Actually I alternated between that and praying for her to have confidence, peace, fun, meet new friends, and feel comfortable and happy in her class. But after working through it all in my heart and in my head I have come to the conclusion that it's just not Corinne to jump into something with both feet, ready to conquer a new adventure. And it may not
ever be her. And that is OKAY. She doesn't need to be anyone but Corinne, with her own gifts, preferences and personality. She would probably not
choose to go to school this year or next year, or maybe even in two years...because it's new, foreign, unfamiliar. But she has to go at some point. And so I think it's the right thing to push her, just a bit, out of her comfort zone. Because that is life and that is how we grow and change, mature and develop. And she is so ready, from an intellectual standpoint, to learn more and do more--to be challenged--that I think she will actually, at some point, really love school. But that may be down the road awhile. So we'll just wait and see, and love her through this. We'll keep talking about how "firsts" are sometimes scary and hard (swim lessons, school). But that it gets easier and becomes more fun the second, third, fourth times. And we'll keep giving her the tools to succeed with confidence.